I'm Lorna, I'm 33 years old. I have two beautiful kids Yasmine (7) and Joseph (1). I'm married, to the most supportive man in the world, my rock my best friend Philip (often referred to as Phil). I originally set up this blog years ago but after another failed attempt at dieting I stopped blogging.
I'll be honest, I don't think I have any major terrible relationship with food, or at least none that I've noticed. I do have a sweet tooth, I also have a savory one, in fact I just have teeth.
Which love food!
I love cooking programmes, I watch Masterchef (UK, USA, Austrilia... anything they put on TV) I love The great British Bake off. These programmes inspire the foody in me.
Food is, particularly in our family, the hub. We go out we eat we stay in we eat. Its there its central.
I want you to know this about me because its part of our lives, its part of all our lives.
So to do for example a slim fast diet, I'm sorry, I'm sure I'd stick to it for like a week but that's it, tops, no way I could do more.
I've tried slimming world, with my friend, who lost a lot of weight on it. It worked for her, fantastic and words can't describe when you see your friends loosing you are proud of them. You love to see them succeed. When I tried said diet, I had an awful time. Too much carbs not enough sugars, drove me crackers. (ummm crackers!) If I wanted something the syns were too high for what it was and I felt forced into using my syns for 'healthier options'. I know this is at last part of the point but ask my other half he will tell you, I don't respond well to people trying to force me to do things. I lasted two weeks, lost eight pounds but was starving the whole time. Sorry not for me.
I've done Weightwatchers for so long on and off and when I'm on I do it and I do it well. After Yasmine was born I went on it lost two stone in three months (no small achievement) but I fell off and have found it difficult to get back on.
At the beginning of this year I had enough. I signed up to do a sponsored walk which I completed and I did lose a few pounds but once the year set in I didn't really keep up the walking (three miles a day mind it was no small feat!)
I want to loose weight.
Not because I have issues with my body. I don't. I remember when Phil and I started dating we went out with a friend and his then girlfriend. I was a size 16 I wasn't small or anything and our friends girlfriend probably about the same as me. We went out to eat and this group of girls probably about our age at the time walked past none of them over a size 12, perfectly healthy girls and I say hats off to them, more power them and everything, our friends girlfriend sat called them "skinny bit*hes" and refused to crack a smile the rest of the evening. I don't tend to compare and contrast, it never makes anyone happy. On the other end of the scale a friend who can't be bigger then a size 8 said she needed to loose some weight, I told her she was beautiful as she is but it is about being comfortable in your own body and I still think this. I genuinely think this. It's not about body shaming the 'too skinny' or 'too fat' its about being healthy.
And lets face it, we know how to be. The tools are there we're far enough along in medical knowledge that we know roughly what food does to us. We know.
But life gets in the way.
I can't promise not to fall off the bandwaggon.
I can't say I won't have off days where I won't go out and eat my body weight in food (and let me tell you that would be an achievement!)
But I am telling you I want to start again.
I'm not going to say how much I weigh.
I will tell you its a lot of weight that needs to go.
So here I am at
weight loss this week: 0
weight loss overall: 0
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